POV…1st person
I have to visit my friend. Yes, have to. I wanted to visit
yesterday and catch up and laugh with him and do what we always do. I wanted to
have a nice lunch and then lounge at the restaurant with a cup of coffee and
remember fun times or discuss what each of us is currently writing or maybe
even talk about his successful novel. I loved to hear how excited he was to
finish the final edit. How he told the publisher that he had just written the
best book they would ever peruse and possibly the best book ever written. He
was sure his bullshit was what made them read his sample.
Instead, I am visiting my friend at the funeral home. As I enter, I see smiling faces and groups of people, some I know, some I do not. His children are near the entrance so I walk directly to them. I really want to speak, but I have no words. I hug each of them and walk to the casket. I pray and I make him a promise. The pain in my heart is unbearable and I need to go. The lightness in this room in inappropriate for my state of loss.
Alone, walking to the car I keep myself together. Once inside, the dam breaks and I am engulfed in my grief and holding my own face with a tissue covering my hands, I simply weep. The drive home is lonely and I remember so much. I am grateful he is not in pain and not lingering on life support.
His time is up and he is heading to his reward. Based on my feelings for him and my knowledge of his life, he is going to be very pleased with his eternity. He deserves all the goodness heaven can offer. He was a good friend and my writing for publication is all because he told me that I was good enough. I believed him. I miss him.
Alone, walking to the car I keep myself together. Once inside, the dam breaks and I am engulfed in my grief and holding my own face with a tissue covering my hands, I simply weep. The drive home is lonely and I remember so much. I am grateful he is not in pain and not lingering on life support.
His time is up and he is heading to his reward. Based on my feelings for him and my knowledge of his life, he is going to be very pleased with his eternity. He deserves all the goodness heaven can offer. He was a good friend and my writing for publication is all because he told me that I was good enough. I believed him. I miss him.
POV…3rd person
It’s over. His pain is gone and she can say goodbye with a
heavy heart. Jo had anticipated a much longer time with her friend, but the
Lord had other plans. Ed’s failing heart had simply worn out. He had been
called home and all that remained for Jo was to pay her respects and then
figure out how to be a writer without her muse. She headed for the funeral home
alone.
Walking into the funeral parlor she was overcome by the
number of people who seemed not to be heart-broken. They were smiling and shaking
hands. She was not ready for this she wasn’t ready to lose him and everyone
seemed to have let him go. Didn’t they know what she knew? Didn’t they know she
needed him in her life? Didn’t they care?
She wasn’t able to smile at his children. She hugged them
and said nothing. She prayed for his soul, though she knew he was already home.
The tears on her cheeks were for her loss, not his. She
lowered her head, signed the guest book and walked alone back to her car. Once
inside, she let the tears and the heartbreak take over. She completely broke
down and gave in to the grief that would be with her for some time.
Her friend, her mentor and her muse had left her to carry on
without his constant support and encouragement. He left her with the confidence
to continue and she left his lifeless body with a promise to honor him by never
forgetting that she was good enough.
Jo