Lost & Found Love

I think sometimes about the 'loves' of my past, don't you?  I wonder where they are, if I don't know and who they have become, if I haven't seen them.  I wonder if they remember me.  What I don't wonder is what our lives would have been like had we stayed with each other. I don't wonder that because it wasn't meant to be that way, so why speculate? I lost those loves and they lost me, yet because they still stroll through my mind every now and then, they are more misplaced than lost.  I could find some of them, probably with the internet, but I don't want to. I don't want to KNOW who or where or what they are now, I'd rather just wonder.

That would be the people whose love I lost.  Now the other 'loves' I have lost, the pets who were furpeople sharing my life, those loves I would love to find.  They are gone from this earth, but they will never be gone from my heart.  I remember and love each of them today as I did when they were with me.  So not truly 'lost', but gone; I know where they are.

Occasionally I find something while cleaning out a closet or a cabinet that I thought was lost. Those things weren't  lost, they just weren't where I am sure I put them.  Finding them can be a treasure or it can irritate me no end because I most likely, bought a new one.  Old things that can't be replaced, when found, now that is a treasure.  I love running across old photos or  things someone gave me a long time ago that have sentimental attachment. It's almost like getting or seeing it for the first time except you also have the first time memory to now remember.

Yep, the whole lost and found thing is a double edged sword for me.  Most often if it's  lost, I'd just prefer that it stay lost because finding it means I have to decide if I need to keep it or lose it again!  I am not much of a keeper so it's usually not a huge decision.


What I hate losing and absolutely love finding is friends.  Old ones, new ones.  Old ones are your link to how you got to be who you are and no matter when they became your friends, they will never really be lost.  New ones are works in progress and grow into old friends or slip into the acquaintance category. Nothing wrong with having a ton of acquaintances, but few of them will really become friends.  Friends are precious and as time passes and life happens it's your friends who are just always there. They are there because they choose to be there, not because they are family and have to be there.  Now that I think about it, you can't really lose a friend, but you can sure find one.


Jo