I have completed 3 novels. Written, edited and rewritten, done. I have recorded one of them and am offering it for sale for a small fee. I feel so good about doing this. It's like, um, so liberating. I am not sitting here waiting for my next rejection letter from a giant publisher who "loves my writing style, but doesn't publish this type of book" and not wondering what "type" it is exactly anymore. I am no longer waiting for anyone to approve of my topic or my anything else; I am waiting now for real people to just hear this story and get to know the Island Princess as I knew her. You see, this story is based on the life of a remarkable young woman with more courage and determination than any other young woman I have ever known. She endured and pushed forward when most of us would have thrown up our hands and called it a day.
I was thinking about the Expectations subject that Beth threw out the other day and I realized that I always have huge expectations. HUGE. I always want it all and somehow, I expect in one way or another, I will get it all. I don't usually know what all is, but I will know it when I get it! My goal is sometimes nothing close to where I actually end up, but still I feel like I got there. Life is just one adventure after another and I await each outcome with anticipation and some trepidation. Anxiety isn't something I carry around because I believe life is what it should be and all the worry I can muster, will make no difference. To paraphrase a very popular prayer, "I strive to accept the things I cannot change. Gain the courage to change the things I can." So high expectation drives me to do both of those things and sometimes gives me the wisdom to know the difference.
For me, EXPECTATIONS = The best I have to offer. My books are that. The best I have to offer. Maybe the worst of the lot, maybe the best ever done or somewhere in between, but the very BEST I have to offer. Now I can actually offer the first one. I am happy.