So I am thinking today that my mind has way too many compartments. It holds memories, plans, ideas and so much more that I couldn't begin to list all the ingredients that make up my mind. The question, though, is: Where is my mind? Yep, that's the 64 thousand dollar question. I used to know things. Now I think things. I am often sure that I have it right only to be shown that I got it all screwed up. Could be important or could be just something trivial, but it's always annoying. I hate being wrong at all, but mostly I hate being wrong when my mind thinks I am right! How does a simple memory become so confused or convoluted over time? I don't know, but it is infuriating.
I also lose things. I put things where I will be able to find them easily and then when I go to retrieve them, zappo! they have disappeared! I will usually eventually find them in some ridiculously obscure place. Obviously, someone moves them when I am not looking. I am thinking I need more security in this house.
By now you are, no doubt, thinking I am an aging woman who doesn't know she has dementia, but I think it is more likely that I have so many little things rattling around in my brain that I can no longer find a storage place for them. Or more likely, someone has moved them, while I wasn't looking into some obscure place. Maybe one day I will be able to Spring clean my brain. Tossing out the old unwanted stuff and organizing the important or relevant information into appropriate compartments.
That will be for another day...today is for relaxing and enjoying my delirium.
Jo
You sound like me. Be afraid. Be very afraid. ;O)
ReplyDeleteI can think of much worse things! Besides, it is what it is, right?
ReplyDeleteIt appears to me that your mind's short term memory is full. Perhaps you should defrag your mind's hard drive, and then delete all the extraneous stuff that's taking up space. Just a thought ....
ReplyDeleteI like what you wrote very much. When do you start of the Story of Mom?
@my sis...well, I keep thinking I need to do that. Problem is, I just keep trying to finish up all the other things I have going on. My current plan is, to start her talking and note taking and let the actual book wait until my mind has been correctly Geeked Up, as you suggested. Thanks for reading and leaving a comment. Appreciate it.
ReplyDeleteWhen you found the answer ... lemme know :-)
ReplyDeleteI have not yet found an answer, still looking! ♥
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