Is there anything in life harder than endings? Something you loved or liked and thought you'd always have in your life is suddenly or gradually gone. Simply gone. No longer part of your everyday life only a memory now. You can cry non-stop over your loss or you can remember how good it was to have it, but in either case, it's over. It's always difficult.
Recently, well, a few months ago, I suffered a gigantic loss. One I am only now beginning to get past. I still miss it and I still wish I could see it daily. I long to settle in for a close two hours of our special time. It's really hard to go through my daily routine now and not have that time of pure relaxation and enjoyment. It's gone and I am sad because a multi-decade of days together are history. I'm glad I had it once, but haven't reached the happy memory stage of my grief yet.
Oh sure, General Hospital is still on and I never miss it. I DVR it if I'm busy at 3 and then enjoy that hour later in the evening. But I will miss All My Children and One Life to Live for a very long time. I have spent many years enjoying Erica Cane and her children and their children. I have loved some of the Buchanans and hated others. Wonder what Blair is wearing today? Oh, and did Vickie marry her ex and father of some of her kids, Clint? I'll never know. I have cried when someone died or had a child. I have laughed at some of the ridiculous plot line, but through it all, I have loved those shows. They were good acting, usually well written and always entertaining. I was never one who lost myself in friendship with the characters like many soap fans did, but I was a fan. I was very sad when they ended.
So for now, I just watch my GH daily and follow the few OLTL cast members who crossed over and call it good. They've been renewed, for now anyway.
Endings are almost always hard. Oh, not when they mean something bad is ending, but otherwise, usually hard.
Did that make you sad?